I Wish . . . . In Vain

I Wish . . . . In Vain

I am walking

around and around

passing the same places

the same people 

over and over again

I am seeing the same things

and experiencing them 

over and over again

I see them coming

and I start to run

I see the past 

once again my future

and I run

I try to run away from it all

I try to avoid the crash

but it comes 

It seems to chase me

and reach for me

Then as it grabs me

what little happiness I knew 

is once again gone for awhile

Over and over again 

this is the game I play

a game of life 

that I do not like

yet I can not avoid

I try to smile...so that I can be happy

yet a smile only brings a false face to a show

a show that I cannot and will not be apart of

Once again its not so bad

its not the worse that has hit me 

yet still as I cry.. I wish ... 

I wish for the impossible....

I wish for a hug to come that will never end

I wish for happier times to never leave me ... 

I wish...I wish...

but in the end I wish in vain. . . 

© June 17, 2012 (Emma Joy Huls)