Fear

Fear

Running in place

in a time 

where frozen in place

I stand alone

nothing seems to be

nothing is as it is

And yet 

frozen in place

I run to a place

where inside myself

i scream aloud

as tears fall down

to a memory 

to a thought 

And yet as I run

as I am frozen

I see and I feel

the reason for it all

Given the knowledge

to set myself free

I reach out to it

yet pull away in fear

Standing in my

frozen state 

my frozen place 

of pain and tears

I turn away from freedom

I turn away from knowledge

I know its there

just a step away

just a simple choice

and yet I fear

I fear the unknown 

beyond the known

I fear the hurt

if the knowledge is false

I fear the laughter

of those I used to trust

But above all

I fear I am unworthy

unworthy of a freedom 

I desire beyond all else

© February 16, 2015